hello everyone and anyone!!!!! ive been having a great week in some ways and a crapy week in others!!!!! bad news first
my mom wants be to babysit......gr....i dont think i could stand the little demons for another hour!!!!!
and she was suppose to take me shopping for school tomorrow.....well thats a bust...and shes leaving on wednesday earl morning....A BIG BUST!!!!
more bad news.....i have a really bad headache.....but..
good news i have a headache from laughing so much
and more god news!!! i met this really amazing guy named Mike (Mj) hes so nice and so sweet...and i think hes hot!!! but not like in the only looks hot..i mean hes hot that ay too but thats not all....hes so nice and sweet.
bad news he lives in new jersey...
now just news......god hes so nice...and hes 21....and he thinks its funny because he totally "hitting" on me when my sister is more his age...but my sister seems like such a bitch to him...(wel no lie there!!) an its weird because im 15 and his rothers 15 but hes brother seemslike a prick to me....a video game nerd....but on to other news...
hes so nice...i dont think i coul ever say that enough....and ashley (the one who introdcued us) syas that he likes me!!!!! EEHHH!!!!! omg....i really like him!!!! god if only he lived here!!!
now onto to something completely different....i got great pants!!!!!!!!! and i might get a job at hot topic....which would be totally awesome...but its at university mall....and likes like 3hours bus ride...but i would so do it anyway!!!!!
well enough about me whats everyone and anone ben doing lately????
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god im soooo bored.......im in Travel and Tourism right now......yea school....gay ass mother fucking.....yea whatever...i wanna go home....graduation is today. i dont wanna go. im to tired... i almost fell asleep when i was writing a pass to go to student affairs...god im tired. i wanna go home home home!!!! its aslmost 8:00..am..god this is sooooo boring..i better expemt this exam..this class is so stupid..we dont do anything and theres only two kids in the entire class now...me and this girl voi. shes pretty cool. but i wanna go home. i need to get note from mrs.griffin so i can exempt....but yea.. g2g ill update later...bi
whoa...i just got back from drum major auditions...there were three different sections we had to do one by one and lucky me i was first for each one...it was kinda ironic...but yea. the first one was teaching fundamentals and sytles of conducting...that was easy...tthen it was salutes and the prepared piece...(Aztec Fire) which i think i did really good on...and the last one was interviews...they asked some deep questions...and i gave deep answers...when i was done..i hadnt even left the room and i had my own little set of watefalls going..(i cried)...everyone thought it was because i was upset on how the interview went..,but it was the opposite...mr.klein asked me why i wanted to be drum major and i told him 'well...most people think that its because i want to follow in my sister's footsteps..but thats not true...i want to be drum major because i can see this band at a higher level and i think i can get it there' then i started thinking about my sister and how if it werent for her i wouldnt be the person i am today...and also i dont think i would have the courage to even try out if it werent for her...and even though she can be a biotch sometimes...that doesnt mean i hate her..even though sometime si say that..i dont mean it...i mean we are sisters so we do fight and always will...but ever since she graduated i barely see her anymore..,and i felt really bad because i dont see her but u felt really happy because i have a sister like her to always be there for me...i have to say im really lucky to have her...god..i have such a headache...ive been sick all day...well i got to go sleep so i can rest up for the car wash tomorrow...i need to be there because it mandatory if i want to be drum major...but bi bi everyone...-cough- owie...
have you ever felt like your life is going no where? everyone in my family has always known what they wanted to do for the rest of their lives...but me...i have no clue what i want to do. there are so many careers and fields that interest me but i dont know...my cousin knows her entire life plan right now...i feel like im never going to amount to anything. ive havent done anything that will make me stand out at all. im just gonna be ordinary...god that sounds really stupid and i hate it...but it seems like thats all im gona be...ordinary...
I am me How specific can I be? Ok well here’s the summary I am me Me as in Peggy. Peggy as in the poet. Peggy as in the musician. Peggy as in the mental. Peggy as in the disturbed. Peggy as in the rocker. Peggy as in the original. Peggy as in the lonee. Peggy as in the owned. Peggy as in the second child. Peggy as in the second youngest. Peggy as in Sue. Peggy as in Rio. Peggy as in Kazutaka. Peggy as in Muraki. Peggy as in the hostess. Peggy as in the quiet one. Peggy as in the lover of all men and women. Peggy as in the oldie’s. Peggy as in the new age. Peggy as in the punk. Peggy as in the metal. Peggy as in the techno. Peggy as in me . I am me. How specific can I be? I. Am. Me.
i wish i was someone else right now...why cant i have a different life? its not fair...why do i have to be me? i hate the way i am...and theres not one fucking thing i can do about it...alli can do is deal with it...i cant wait till i die...its not right the stuff i have to go through. a 15 year old shouldnt have to drag her grandma out of someone else's front yard because she has no clue on where the fuck she is because she's almost fucking brain dead because she in stage 3 of alzhemiers (theres only 4 stages total)...and no one should have to go to a thirft store and look alllll around the girl's and guy's jeans and not find a single one that would fit because their too fucking fat...nd its great having to come home and have your grandparents look at you like your the failure of the whole family...isnt that just the ideal life for anyone????????? i think not...................i need drugs......better yet i need a cigarette.......
whoa...i havent updated in the longest time...well lets have an overveiw shall we?
-one of my bestest bestest best friends, David, has moved to north tampa because of his wacko mom. -im gonna try out for drum major...-crosses fingers- -im also trying out for a singing part at our boardway show (band thing) and im afraid illmess up and people will laugh -hides- dont lookat me like that!! -umm...i can finally download music!!!!! no more cd's for me!! -my dad's been a real ass because everythime i want to stya the night at kim's he says only if her dads there...and her dad works nights at Mcdonalds (hes a manager) and he wont let me!! \ -im actually asking my sister for something besides money or mom's phone number!!!-gasp-!!! (shes helping me practice for the drum major tryouts may 6th!!!!) -i stopped smoking!! haaallllleujjjaaahhhhhh!!!!!! -the heavens open up...bright light- hhaaallllllleeeuuuujjjaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (lol i know!) -juanita (good friend) moved in!!! YAY!!! its fun...but shes moving in june -tear- i wish she didnt have to go...im gonna miss her sooooooo much!!!! and jessie (who moved in with kim) -im at kims!!! im only staying till 7 (because i cant spend the night!!!!!!!!!! -mumbles- stupid ass...) -i want to go to the taking bak sundy concert with brittny!!! but i dont know if my dad will say yes....i hope he does i wannsa go sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -lately ive been having these really bad headaches very often is that some sort of medical thing?? if anyone knows please tell me because i always have them and their really bad ones too like migrains... -the band trip is this friday!!!! WWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait!!! its gonna be so much fun!!!! eeeeeeeeee!!!! im so excited!!!! -were doing so much in band this last part of the year!!! were sooo busy!! we have the trip, our spring concert, our boardway show, the banquet, and soo much other stuff (including drum major tryouts!!!) -my little brothersd having his surgury on his heart this summer...im going out to texas and see them all...i really miss them...i hope he'll be okay...theres a chance that he could die from this surgury...i dont think i could go through that... -my dad isnt doing to good...the other day hes blood sugar was at 419 (normal is close to 100) and his vision was all blurry and he went to the hospital and he cant drive or work or anything...and if he doesnt start eating right hes gonna die...
well i think thats it for now...well ill start updating more often...keep you people 'informed' even though some of you couldnt care less....lol....ill tell you anyway!!!
OOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we had competition today and we got STRAIGHT SUPERIORS!!!!!!!!!! -does victory dance- oh we're good...go us!
You scored as Schizophrenia. Congratulations! You are schizophrenic! You know how to space out for hours at a time in a corner and that The Dark Master is not joking..... keep on tossin' those word-salads... dress mess bless!
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